Suffocation

This post came to me with a heavy and sad heart, but I saw the need for symbolism with how we can feel in our daily lives if we do not address a situation.  It came to me while I was doing quite time Monday morning after Dixie had her puppies.  She had twelve.  Bethany Jean, if you are reading this stop now.  When we went out and saw that she had them, only five were alive.  You see, Dixie had dug a deep hole to have her puppies in.  We guess that she got down in the hole to have them and nurse them ... well 7 of them were suffocated.  I mean squished.  I don't want to gross you out, but I do want you to get the image here and the symbolism.  When they passed, you could tell that they were just gasping for every last breath that they could possibly compel.  Ugh.  Brings tears to my eyes again.  Hang with me though.  I know I have been at a point in my life where I felt the very same way.  Gasping for air.  Panting.  Dying for just one breath of freshness.  And no, I am not talking about after a work out with Tony from Insanity or Jillian on her Ripped in 30.  I am talking about in my daily life.  This has happened to me twice.  Once when I was in college and totally living out someone else's life;  constantly saying, "who is this girl?" and dying for a refreshment of the Good air.  The second time was when I was teaching and knowing God was calling me to stay home with Kirby.  The thing that both times had in common: I was running away from what the Holy Spirit was telling me to do.  I was going the opposite direction of what I knew I was being led to do.  It was too hard to change, so I kept fighting it and fighting it, all the while running out of air.  There were days I would come home and just gasp for freshness in both situations.  I felt like what those poor puppies looked like.  It was awful.  But praise the Almighty God for saving me.  He gave me the chance to escape the depths of my pit; I looked up and saw my Saving grace.  When I chose to follow Him instead of run, my heart and breath were restored.  New life came over me.  You can have that too if you feel like I did.  It is so easy to do.  Even if you are already a child of God ( I have been since I was 8, but I have already had 2 near suffocation episodes in my 20 years of being saved) you can still cry out to Him and ask for restoration.  He is calling you to do so.  If you are out of breath, please join me in getting your fresh air and clean water from His word.

"Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need."  

Hebrews 4:16

Final survivors!